I am officially a college graduate! Finished my last ever finals a few weeks back and I finally got my diploma in the mail! It feels so surreal to be done with school, for now at least. Going to school is all I know since I’ve been in the education system basically since I can talk. It feels weird to not be worrying about my next exam and assignment. Having a college degree has been the biggest goal in my life, whats my goal now? Obviously, it’s to get a job in a career and industry I want but I’m halfway done with that goal, so now what?
I’m always looking for the next big thing, which in some cases is great because it means I’m constantly growing and changing. But, it gives me so much anxiety and makes me second guess myself. I know what I want to do, I guess it’s the getting there that makes me worry. Like how will I know if what I am doing now is helpful in my career later on? And this is where you say, “you won’t know till the time comes Cate, calm down!” But I can’t!
I don’t mean to toot my own horn (I do), but I finished college before I turned 21, got a job within a week of officially finishing school and I know that’ss amazing but I just feel that there’s something else I can be doing to be a better candidate and overall person. I’m scared of being still because I know starting up again is going to be incredibly difficult. I don’t want to see myself in a rut and I don’t want to be one of those people who are just content with what is. It’s just not me.
I’m calling this my 1/5 life crisis. What in the world is Cate going to do next? Hopefully get a dog but that’s not happening anytime soon, thanks dad…
All the love.